being unwell..

has made me realised that it could be both a good or terrible thing.

terrible because,
i really wanted to bang my head against something when the pain reaches its peak.
then i start wondering to myself why we need to have teeth and gums. and if only i could saw my jaws away.
my jawline, neck were all swollen. it wasnt a very good sight.
everynight, i have to go through this 2hours ordeal of tossing&turning about in bed before i finally fall asleep due to fatigue. only to be woken up again by the sharp pain when i accidentally shut my jaw too tightly.
every word spoken was so slurred and took so much effort.
being the slow eater that i already am, instead of a 30mins meal, i now take an hour.
the tuitions i have to cancelled, the classes i had to miss, the money i have to spend on lousy doctor.
it was torturous mentally and physically.

good because,
i get to have porridge for all 3 meals. (i loveeee porridge.)
wonderful family and friends who have been absolute darlings.
mum made porridge, liangtehs, and whatever that she thinks will be good for me.
and i even got liangteh delivery from a very nice person.
i enjoyed feeling pampered. heh.
even though sometimes they make a big fuss... like "go sleep already!" at 9pm and even "can go to the hospital or something?" :p kidding. i've got cute friends.

there are always 2 sides to a coin, no?
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getting better now.
the antibiotics and all that liangtehs etc helped.
i can feel the swell subsiding.
but the pain still creeps in every few hours...
and my speech is still slurred ._.